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..... [27 Jul 2015|12:18am]
I never really understood what "quarter life crisis" meant until I reached this point in my life. As a kid, I would always tell myself, "What quarter life crisis are these grown-ups talking about? How can one go through something like that? YOU make plans, YOU figure things out, YOU know what to do with your life. This 'quarter life crisis' thing sounds so stupid." And yes, to a naive and taintless mind, it seemed so true. But then life isn't always how you imagine it to be, and before you know it, it hits you right in the chest. You THINK you've made plans, you THINK you've figured things out, you THINK you know what to do with your life.

But of course, I KNOW what to do with my life. I'm two years shy of being a full-fledged eye MD. I'll be taking my fellowship abroad. I'll be working my arse off and have a happy life.

Yes, a happy life. Isn't that what we're all eyeing ever since? Yes, I still believe that. But it seems like through the years, my mind has been trained to think that being happy means being able to earn enough to make myself happy. IT'S ALL ABOUT THE MONEY. I'm doing all this sacrifice because that's what I'm bound to do. It's JUST really all about the money! And it pains me to realize how much I have forgotten about the things that really matter. I am now living FOR the money. I am not living for myself.

With that, I am now questioning this life I lead. What am I here for? Is life really just about the money? Whether I stay single or have kids in the future, is life really just about making money for me, or for them? I hate this. I really do. I have reduced this life to merely a money-making venture.

I have to change this. I need change in my life. I need to rethink my choices. I have to overcome this.

This life, this crisis that I have right now... I know it's trying to tell me something: Go make plans, go figure things out, go ahead and find out what you CAN do with your life. And yeah, go make yourself happy.
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[21 Feb 2015|08:12pm]
One whole day spent wasting away at home was just what I needed. It's been one hell of a ride -- seeing someone dear to me struggle and fight for her life, trying to fathom the idea of my brother getting engaged in a matter of six weeks, being a soundboard to two friends who are going through yet another painful but numbing heartbreak. I'm not the protagonist nor the victim, but it's equally debilitating. Maybe my life is just too boring and uneventful, and I have no other choice but to wallow in other people's misfortunes. Here I go again! Life, don't get me wrong. I'm not asking for problems, lol. *sigh* I don't know what to feel anymore. I remember them old people saying, "Don't be in a hurry to grow up." Now I get it. Being a grown-up? NOT. FUN.
me do.

[23 Dec 2014|08:42pm]
Hindi ako nagmemeron sa ginagawa ko. Saklap.
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[14 Dec 2014|10:14pm]
You frickin threw it away. Just like that.

You frickin threw it away.

I just frickin hope you're happy. I just frickin hope you're happier now than you could ever be.

And I am frickin not.
me do.

.................. [16 Apr 2008|02:36pm]
I never knew this kind of pain existed, that it could ever break me into pieces.

I feel angry. I feel stupid. I feel exhausted.

Yes, I do have regrets.

I shouldn't have let it reach this point. I shouldn't have let fear take over me. Bakit ka ba duwag, ha?

I'm letting the pain settle until I grow tired of it...

I'm not okay, but I will be.
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[10 Apr 2007|07:19pm]

You had me at 'Chee'.

Which movie was this quote from?

Get your own quotes:

Come with Rachel if you want to live.

Which movie was this quote from?

Get your own quotes:

May the Chee be with you.

Which movie was this quote from?

Get your own quotes:
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L'été 2007 [24 Mar 2007|11:09am]
Apr 8:
Manila - Nagoya, Japan
Nagoya - Detroit, MI
Detroit - Orlando, FL (Tita Lelot's place)

Apr 13:
Orlando - Memphis, TN
Memphis - Newark, NJ
Newark - Roselle Park, NJ (Kuya Efren's place)

Apr 14 - 22:
New York, NY
Queens, NY (Tita Amor's place)
Washington D.C.
Princeton, NJ (visit Sir Ely)

Apr 23:
Newark - Minneapolis, MN
Minneapolis - San Francisco, CA
San Francisco - Daly City, CA (Tito Boy's place)

Apr 23 - May 7:
San Francisco, CA
Daly City, CA
El Sobrante, CA (Tita Linda's place)
Las Vegas, NV (???)
Los Angeles, CA (meet up with Sarah and Apple)
Stevenson Ranch, CA (Tito Cris's place)

May 8:
San Francisco - Tokyo, Japan
Tokyo - Manila

May 10:
Deadline for UST Med requirements

May 20ish:

2 weeks before the first day of class:
tooth extraction (surgery no.2)
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[23 Dec 2006|05:30pm]
Someone made me smile last night.


This is so fun!

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[21 Aug 2006|09:31am]
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[24 Jun 2006|03:38pm]

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Catching Up [14 Jun 2006|03:21pm]
Yesterday was Orsem Day 1 and I did a lot of work for Log. Today, I'm stuck here at home with a bad cold and a sore throat. Thanks to the weather!

We had a going-away dinner for Sir Ely last night at Shakey's Katipunan. He's leaving for Princeton to earn his doctorate. Talk about brilliance! As always, it was fun being with Sir Ely and the Psychos (Annika, Anj, Pau, Paula, Kim, JB, Raymonde, Jappy, Marlon, Joey, Patrick, Ling, Marco, Rian, JC, and Jap!). We feasted on thin crust pizza, chicken, and mojos. :)

Had a drinking sesh with Anj, Paula, and Raymonde at Cantina. Fun fun time with Raymonde when Anj and Paula left. We went home at midnight (curfew!!!) and had a 4-hour (nerdy) phone conversation. Good times, Chie. Good times.

I really missed my friends. Thank God for yesterday. :)
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[27 Apr 2006|08:26am]
You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.
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[19 Apr 2006|07:01pm]
40+ means you're spoiled:

Do you have:
(1) your own cell phone
(2) a television in your bedroom
(3) an iPod/MP3 player
( ) a photo printer
( ) your own phone line
( ) TiVo or a generic digital video recorder
(4) high-speed internet access (i.e., not dialup)
( ) a surround sound system in bedroom
(5) DVD player in bedroom
(6) at least a hundred DVDs
(7) a childfree bathroom
(8) your own in-house office
( ) a pool
( ) a guest house
( ) a game room
(9) a queen-size bed or larger
( ) a stocked bar
( ) a working dishwasher
( ) an icemaker
(10) a working washer and dryer
(11) more than 20 pairs of shoes
(12) at least ten things from a designer store
(13) expensive sunglasses
( ) framed original art (not lithographs or prints)
( ) Egyptian cotton sheets or towels
( ) a multi-speed bike
(14) a gym membership
(15) large exercise equipment at home
( ) your own set of golf clubs
( ) a pool table
( ) a tennis court
( ) local access to a lake, large pond, or the sea
( ) your own pair of skis
( ) enough camping gear for a weekend trip in an isolated area
( ) a boat
( ) a jet ski
(16) a neighborhood committee membership
( ) a beach house or a vacation house/cabin
(17) wealthy family members
(18) two or more family cars
( ) a walk-in closet or pantry
(19) a yard
( ) a hammock
( ) a personal trainer
(20) good credit
(21) expensive jewelry
( ) a designer bag that required being on a waiting list to get
( ) at least $100 cash in your possession right now
( ) more than two credit cards bearing your name (not counting gas cards or debit cards)
( ) a stock portfolio
(22) passport
( ) a horse
( ) a trust fund (either for you or created by you)
(23) private medical insurance
(24) a college degree, and no outstanding student loans --> graduating soon!

Do you:
(25) shop for non-needed items for yourself (like clothes, jewelry, electronics) at least once a week
(26) do your regular grocery shopping at high-end or specialty stores
(27) pay someone else to clean your house, do dishes, or launder your clothes (not counting dry-cleaning)
(28) go on weekend mini-vacations
(29) send dinners back with every flaw
(30) wear perfume or cologne (not body spray)
(31) regularly get your hair styled or nails done in a salon
( ) have a job but don't need the money OR
( ) stay at home with little financial sacrifice
(32) pay someone else to cook your meals
( ) pay someone else to watch your children or walk your dogs
( ) regularly pay someone else to drive you
( ) expect a gift after you fight with your partner

Are you:
( ) an only child
( ) married/partnered to a wealthy person
( ) baffled/surprised when you don't get your way
(33) been on a cruise
(34) traveled out of the country
(35) met a celebrity
( ) been to the Caribbean
(36) been to Europe
(37) been to Hawaii
(38) been to New York
( ) eaten at the space needle in Seattle
( ) been to the Mall of America
(39) been on the Eiffel tower in Paris
(40) been on the Statue of Liberty in New York
( ) moved more than three times because you wanted to
(41) dined with local political figures
( ) been to both the Atlantic coast and the Pacific coast

Did you:
( ) go to another country for your honeymoon
( ) hire a professional photographer for your wedding or party
(42) take riding or swimming lessons as a child
(43) attend private school
(44) have a Sweet 16 birthday party thrown for you (debut at 18, actually) haha
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Freundschaft [07 Apr 2006|10:42pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Today was 'flashback day' with two of my best friends.

I finally got to spend half a day with my best friend Flor. She's been really busy with school and hospital duties ('cause she's a nursing student), and we barely saw each other these past few months. I was still in my night dress (actually, it was just a biiiig shirt --> ok, overshare!) playing some classical pieces when she got to my house. We went to the hospital to visit our good ole friend Jeng (aka JR, Conrad, Christopher... bwahaha!) who just had an appendectomy. We stayed there for about an hour and we reminisced our puberty and early adolescent days...

♠ Flor, Teddi, and I, calling up guys and pretending to be Camille, Audrey, and Amy
♠ Going out at 6 am to jog around the village but ending up at my house to eat shitloads of longganisa, bacon, daing na bangus, and fried rice for breakfast
♠ Jeng, Alvin, and Vincent, sending drobo messages to our pagers (yes, remember the 'pager' era?)
♠ Jeng, showing up at our barkada swimming party wearing a barong
♠ Having 3-way conferences in the wee hours of the morning
♠ Wearing neutral gray shirts at the opening ceremony of the sportsfest to stay neutral 'cause the boys might notice which team we were siding with
♠ Setting up a water fight against the D boys, who claimed victory with the help of their scooters
♠ Jeng, formulating his hypotheses and theories on our puppy love stories
♠ Jeng, having to endure our 4-year infatuation with *toot* and *toot*

and a whole lot more. :)

One of our friends is giving birth in less than a month, and we're throwing her a baby shower on Sunday. Flor and I decided to go to the mall to buy baby stuff, but we ended up having dinner instead. It was fun talking to her again. I realized we went through the same things and it felt good that someone understood what I had experienced. MY BEST FRIEND IS BACK! No, scratch that. I NEVER LOST MY BEST FRIEND. ♥

Sleepover after the baby shower! Whoopee! I love my friends... sisters! :D

me do.

[07 Apr 2006|12:54pm]
I've been bumming around for the past two weeks and I'm loving it. I go out on sporadic gimmicks and hangouts with my barkada, but most of the time I'm here at home, wasting away. Hahaha!

I have so many plans for this year. Lemme see...

♠ take Hi166 this summer (along with my OJT)
♠ take French conversation classes at Alliance Francaise de Manille
♠ treat myself weekly at Taco Bell and Bread Talk
♠ do something with my hair (dye? new haircut?)
♠ read more philosophical readings (haha!)
♠ collect books on French culture and cuisine (want to learn more about tisane, foie gras, fromage et vin, et cetera !)
♠ take German 1 next semester
♠ take Euro 21 next semester
♠ watch French films at Alliance
♠ babysit my friend's baby (whee!)
♠ be less tardy :p

I am such a Europhile! :D
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[02 Apr 2006|11:39am]

Which country should you REALLY be living in?

The United Kingdom

You have pride in yourself and pride in your country. You believe that history and culture is an important factor to the future of your country, and that traditions and values should be upheld. You love your scones and tea, and reading soppy romance novels. The UK is where you should be...

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Ooohh yeah! :D
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En français [30 Oct 2005|10:36pm]
[ mood | french-y ]

Je suis en train de boire du thé nature et je ne peux pas dormir. Cet après-midi, je suis allée au Metrowalk chez mon frère et j'ai acheté 11 DVDs ! Je suis allée à ma maison à 18h00. Après le dîner, j'ai regardé le film Wicker Park. Ou la la, je pense qu'il est très magnifique ! Haha ! J'étudierai pour le NMAT demain avec mon amie Sharky, et quand nous finissons, je regarderai les autres films :)

Ou la la, j'ai mal à la tête. Est-ce que je dois dormir maintenant? Mais je veux finir le quatrieme episode de Grey's Anatomy. Hahaha !

Mon piano, je manque ! Je le manque beaucoup ! Et ma guitare que mon frère est abîmé hahaha. Alors, au lieu de jouer le piano et la guitare, je chanterai beaucoup journalier ! Hahaha !

Alors, j'écris mal en français... encore. :( Pourquoi est-ce que les professeurs en français à l'Ateneo ne nous enseignent pas d'écrire bien ou de composer les essais ? Waaaah !

Bonne nuit à tout le monde !

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Survey [29 Oct 2005|02:41pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

10 years ago I...
- was in 3rd grade.
- was confined in the hospital for a week (measles!) and had to stay home for 3 weeks... so I was absent for a month!
- went to the States for the second time.

5 years ago I...
- went to Bangkok with my family and Ate Val's family! :)
- became the class vice president for the first time (forever secretary haha).
- was delinquent. Wahahaha! (got the lowest grades in my pre-college academic history haha)

1 year ago I...
- was crushing on a little Chinese boy (hehehe).
- went to Singapore! Waaah!
- spent Christmas in Davao! Wheee!

Yesterday I...
- downloaded Lost and Grey's Anatomy! --> ♥
- had dinner at Mister Kabab (yum!) with Mac, Mica, Sharky, and Richard.
- had Moroccan Mint Tea Latte + Choco Fudge Cake + Blueberry cheesecake at Coffee Bean Promenade and saw Pau and Anne Go. :)

5 snacks I enjoy...
- Cheetos + Minute Maid OJ
- white cheese pizza from Sbarro
- chicken enchilada from Tia Maria's
- Chipotle Roast Chicken sandwich from Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf
- chocolate! Reese's peanut butter cups, York, Crunch!

5 songs I know all the words to...
- Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional
- 23 by Jimmy Eat World
- Gifts and Curses by Yellowcard
- 'Til There Was You by The Beatles
- Idlip by Imago

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars...
- buy myself a new laptop, a new iPod, a new desktop, and all other techy stuff!
- travel around Europe with my barkada (libre na lahat!)
- buy a house in Southern France (i.e., Nice) or in Monaco
- buy lots of musical instruments and build a house (yes, a HOUSE) for weekend jamming haha.
- keep the rest in the bank

5 places I would run away to...
- Singapore
- Bramasole in Tuscany or Positano (watch Under the Tuscan Sun!)
- Beaune, France
- my relatives' place in Davao
- Lake Lucerne, Switzerland
(Grabe, ang sossy ko naman! Hahaha!)

5 places I would love to go to..
- Porto, Portugal
- Tokyo, Japan (not just in Narita, ok? haha)
- Prague, Czech Republic
- Africa! esp Rabat and Casablanca, Morocco (French-speaking Africans... aaaah!)
- Kathmandu, Nepal

5 things I would never wear...
- flowery tops
- butterfly clips
- anything neon
- icky hair accessories (same here, Ems!)
- disc earrings and retro-ish bangles

5 favorite TV shows...
- Friends
- The O.C.
- Grey's Anatomy
- Small Wonder (Ems!!! Haha. The Lawsons! Old school!)
- Crystal Maze (woohoo old school!)

5 bad habits...
- laziness
- procrastination
- tardiness (!!!)
- gluttony
- sleeping without switching the tv off

5 biggest joys...
- listening to music / performing / making music / talking music with friends
- traveling
- eating Jap, Chinese, Italian food, and chocolate! (pigging out with my barkada)
- riding subways
- learning foreign languages

5 fictional characters I would date...
- Seth Cohen (The O.C.)
- Harry Burns (When Harry Met Sally)
- Ross Geller (Friends)
- Jack Shepard (Lost)
- Max Pennington (Sweet Valley University: Elizabeth) --> special edition. Nyahahahaha!!! :))

5 People I'm Tagging
- Ryce
- Surot
- Nicole
- Raffy
- Rica

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France 2007 [21 Aug 2005|09:27pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Four months in France, two years from now... What do you think? :D

Is taking a year off before med school worth it? :)

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Pointless Post with Keso On the Side [11 Jun 2005|03:56pm]
The feeling you get from cutting your fingernails after 3 1/2 weeks is just like having the power to rule the world. *bwahahaha*

Hello piano and guitar! I've missed you. :D


Tu me donnes la raison d'aimer.
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